to laugh or not?

my dear - we've gone thru alot together. have to admit that in the earlier years of this friendship i will still be concerned of u judging me or watso eva. but definitely no more for now. well i won't blame u for thinking tat way - afraid tat i will scold u for being silly or wateva cos u know how i always deal with relationships. i have been thru some silly moments (which i oso din share with u - never mind abt that) n i know that there are some things that we just need to do to prove a point to ourselves - no matter how silly it may appear to be for others. i'm sure that they may come a time in the future that we will do such again - for me, i hope i will do so. cos by then, i'm sure i 've found this HIM that i will be so crazy in love with that. cos to think abt it, i haven experienced any sort of crazy blasting love in my 27 yearS!! there isn't a single name that pops out on my mind for 'my greatest love to date'. Wat a failure !!

anyway, just to share something with u - i duno if i should laugh or be angry. here goes

we were at volar last night. left at abt 2am with this french guy greg (kenneth's housemate). at the cloakroom, he realise he had to take ken's coat cos they got it mixed up. then he realise he din have the key! n worst, ken's phone is with him too ! then i told him that the best i can offer is my living room with a shelter. he said neh mind, dun wana bother me. ok dropped him off n i went home. i tried calling him on ken's phone, he never pick up so i tot, good he's home. then after i got home, phone rang - kenneth. so i guessed, poor boy , must be kena locked out. he asked if living room is still available. ok, come on up. so he realie made himself at home - then

he ask, "are we gona watch dvd”

“here are all my dvds, you go ahead, I need to sleep”

“u gona let me sleep alone here in the living room”

“yeah, here’s the lights if u may need it”

Then I went back my room to sleep.

Less than 10min, he knocked on my door, saying that he managed to find somewhere else to bunk. So bye, off he goes.

To me, it was funny. But maybe I should feel offended?? Or was I just too naïve n nice?!?! Haa… I was innocently thinking that he would be a poor boy if he had to sleep along the corridor!!! N wasn’t I obvious enough from the beginning thinking that all I’m offering is the LIVING ROOM WITH NO SPECIAL SERVICE. WHAT A MAN. Or maybe he’s thinking – wat the Fuck, wat is this gal thinking of – bringing a man home n no action?! Oh man. Am I giving pple that kind of impression ?!

N honestly, I actually have a good impression of him as a friend – obviously nothing more as a friend la, else I will offer my bed! Haaaaa. Or maybe if its Kenneth it may also have been different. Oh did I tell u !? I realized that K also had fling with Ailing ! wah cow eh ! diang. Eversince I knew that, I had been keeping a distance from him.

I am realie lazy nowadays – even lazy to get engaged with conversations. Well, guess I’m still getting used to meeting more new pple & hopefully eventually friends